I know when I have a day like this that all I have to do is get through it, get through the night, and wake up tomorrow with a better attitude. I know that, but that doesn't make it any easier. Not much easier, anyway.

What does make it easier? Coffee with a friend in the afternoon, a needed break from the onslaught of work that sometimes seems to be leading nowhere. I know this is important stuff I'm doing. I know that, but it doesn't make it any less tedious. Getting back from coffee and realizing there hadn't been any new calls or faxes while I was gone is a good thing, too. It helps.

What else good can be said about today? I had a good talk with my nephew, and even though his house is embroiled in chaos, and nobody there is quite completely healthy, he's doing his best to keep a good attitude. And that helps me keep a good attitude, because my life, while chaotic in its own way, is a lot simpler, since I mostly have no one but myself to look after. That's more than enough for me to cope with right now.

I'm trying here. This blue-black haze that settled over me today isn't real. I know that. I also know that I don't have "real" problems (but maybe if I did, I could come up with a "real" solution). I'm just trying to get to tomorrow so I can wake up and realize that I'm okay.