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The fact that I did it to myself is of no consolation whatsoever. In fact, it makes me feel a little stupid that even though I woke up this morning with a knot in my back and a twinge in my sketchy right hip joint, I went on the treadmill for thirty minutes anyway. I kept the incline low and the speed moderate, and while I was working out it didn’t bother me. Much. Afterward, it did. A lot.
It’s only a slight exaggeration to say that every joint in my body aches. Some more than others. Some easier to ignore than others. I did it to myself, to some degree, but I didn’t ask for this.
But yes, I should have known better. I should have heeded the all too blatant warning sign. But, you see, I missed the treadmill yesterday, and I haven’t missed two days in a row since I started. I’m a little afraid to miss two days in a row, but now I’m thinking I might be missing about a week, until this pain (that used to be a twinge) eases up a bit. I’ve pretty much cancelled all planned physical activity. The treadmill doesn’t have a Shuffling mode. It won’t go slower than one mile per hour, but that’s about where I’m at today.
One thing I learned today was that if you happen upon the right combination of medication, you can just sit and endure. Even if it starts to hurt, you don’t care all that much. Oh, my. Another pain shooting through my body. Well, that’s interesting, but it will pass if I just sit here and let it. As long as I have that going for me, no doctor is going to touch me. I’ll be the one who decides when it gets to the next level.
So I canceled my appointments for tomorrow, and I’ll do as much sitting around as I can, in whatever degree of stupor seems appropriate. No exercise, and frequent breaks (because I can’t take the whole day off, no matter what). I even put off my car appointment until Friday, and if I’m not enough better by then, I’ll postpone it again. |
