In some ways, today was worse than yesterday, even though I felt a little better. For one thing, I could feel the hollowness in my stomach, and yet almost every kind of food I had in the house made me nauseous just to look at it. Hungry, but canít stand the sight of food. Thatís a dilemma.
Also, I got frustrated with just sitting around all day, but every time I got up I felt weak and light-headed. I just had to learn to endure the frustration, because that queasy feeling wasnít worth it. There wasnít much of anywhere to go anyway. I definitely wasnít going to a kidsí birthday party feeling like this.
Mostly I know I canít get away with doing nothing for one more day. Tomorrow is Monday, which is bad enough. But we also have a bid that has to go in tomorrow, and Iím in charge of the bid package. I have to take it somewhere and overnight it to Los Angeles, or the company will miss out on a very promising project. So Iíll do it. I wonít feel like it, but Iíll do it.